In this complicated world, emotions are like a play without a script. Everyone is the protagonist of their own story and a passer-by in other people’s stories. I stand in the middle of my life, looking back at those deep or shallow footprints, and I can’t help but feel ripples in my heart. Today, from the perspective of a 46-year-old woman, I would like to talk candidly about a topic that is often mentioned but difficult to explain – will women forget the men they have had sex with?
I remember it was a spring afternoon, and the sun shone through the gaps in the leaves, casting mottled light and shadow. He just walked into my world unexpectedly. There is no gorgeous opening or deliberate arrangement, everything seems to be a clever arrangement of fate. His smile, warm and bright, seemed to dispel all my gloom. At that moment, I knew that my heart was moved.
Our relationship is like the fruits of early summer, green yet sweet. We share each other’s dreams and past, and talk about our vision for the future. In those days, we seemed to become an integral part of each other’s lives. Finally, on a starry night, the two hearts were tightly linked to each other and crossed the river called “boundary”.
However, good times are always short-lived. As life goes on, we each embark on different journeys. Breaking up has become an inevitable outcome for us. At that moment, my heart ached, as if the whole world had lost its color. I try to fill the emptiness in my heart with busyness, and use time to dilute those unforgettable memories. But in the dead of night, those times we spent together would come flooding back, making me unable to breathe.
I began to ask myself, will a woman forget the man she had sex with? The answer doesn’t seem that simple. For me, that experience has already become an indispensable part of my life. It taught me how to love and what it feels like to be loved. Although he is no longer in my life, his shadow will always remain in my heart.
However, life does not stop just because a person leaves. As I grow older, I gradually learn to let go. I began to understand that some people are destined to only accompany you for a certain distance; some feelings are destined to be buried deep in my heart. I began to try to face the past with a more mature and rational attitude, cherish the present, and look forward to the future.
I began to develop my own hobbies, such as traveling, reading, and yoga… These hobbies that had been put on hold due to busyness came back into my life. I found that when I became fulfilled and strong, the pain I had experienced became no longer so unbearable. I began to learn to make peace with myself, with the past, and to cherish every moment in front of me more.
Some people say that time is the medicine that heals all pain. But in my opinion, time is more like a wise man. It will not erase your memories, but teach you how to coexist peacefully with them. I’ve never really gotten over the man I had a relationship with. But my memory is no longer a source of pain, but an important milestone on my growth path.
I am grateful to him because he allowed me to experience the sweetness and bitterness of love; I am grateful to that experience because it taught me how to love and be loved better. At the same time, I also understand that life continues, and there are more unknown and beautiful things ahead waiting for me to explore.
Now, standing at the 46-year-old life node, looking back on the past, I cherish everything in front of me even more. I know that no matter what kind of people I meet in the future or what kind of things I experience, I will face it with a more mature and tough heart. Because I believe that every person who appears in my life is meaningful; every experience is a precious treasure given to me by life.
As for the question – “Will a woman forget the man she had sex with?” My answer is: Maybe not completely, but we can choose to let it go. Let the past become the past and make the future better. Cherish the present and embrace the future, this is what we should do most.
